Two Blogs in One Day. Aces.

I really need cloning to be perfected. But somehow I need my clones to all be brain-linked. Basically I need to major in about 20 subjects simultaneously. Music, teaching, anthropology, archaeology, film direction, acting, astrophysics, astronomy, religious studies, creative writing...gah. I'm just standing here looking at the world yelling, "LET ME LEARN ALL OF YOU." I feel like a little kid, I just want to be everywhere and do everything. To such an extent that I'm really hoping I will end up being satisfied with my life, not in a permanent state of discontentment. I know I'm only 19 and have a lot of life ahead of me (provided I learn to eat my veggies). But there's just so much to do. I just really don't want to be that person who just keeps doing stuff that doesn't matter and spends their whole life just wishing they were doing something else. Because I know people who are always discontent no matter how many awesome things they get to do, just because in between those awesome things they aren't satisfied. And I love them so much that it's really hard to watch them struggle with that frustration.

One thing I'm excited about that comes with being a teacher are summers off. I know there is still planning and things that happen during the summer, but I also know that my old orchestra teacher got to go places for weeks at a time. That gives me so much hope because that means that if I'm smart about my money, I can go to exciting places on a teacher's salary. I could see Vienna! I could go to fucking Africa, FINALLY! And New Zealand! That teacher was in Germany for like 3 weeks last summer. Hell, she's remodeling her house, too! That can be me, right? Right?

Shit.

Do you dream about music or mathematics or planets too far for the eye? / Do you dream about Jesus or quantum mechanics or angels who sing lullabies?

Floss

Song of the Day: One Week by Barenaked Ladies

Preparations for getting an apartment with Emily are actually starting; we're looking online for cheap furniture and such. I'm ridiculously excited. Maybe because for once, the awesome plans I made with a friend are actually going to happen. I feel like one of two things usually happens: 1) I make awesome plans with my friends and they fall through or 2) My friends do awesome things without me. That sounds like a king-size scoop of self-pity. But it just feels like they go on adventures and...well, I don't. Hopefully they were serious about that spring break one. I miss my girls.

I'm glad I have stuff to do this week. Since I got laid off of work, any day without something to do feels really wasted and I don't move and then I feel awful physically and mentally. For the first few days it rocked, but now I just feel too static. But now I have a bunch of colors filling up iCal and it makes me feel good =] Even just little things like a piano lesson, a hair appointment, and taking my cello to Kenmore to get a pickup installed can help so much because then I feel like I'm doing things with my day. Also got a gig in freaking Tacoma on Saturday, so that's an exciting little mini-roadtrip to Sketchtown.

Oh shit, I have a dentist appointment next week. Guess I should wear my retainer a few times.

I need freedom now / and I need to know how / to live my life as it's meant to be. -The Cave, Mumford & Sons

Long Time, No See

Song of the day: Everlasting Light by The Black Keys

So I just revisited this blog because I had forgotten what I had posted here, if anything. Turns out that road trip never happened. It was pushed back to this spring, but it probably won't happen then, either. Sigh.

I started a Tumblr because I like how abstract and stream-of-consciousness it is. "I like that picture." *post* It doesn't require explanation or eloquence. Obviously, not needing to be eloquent is a big plus for me.

I've decided that I need a place to get my thoughts down without really caring whether anyone sees it or not. Up until now, my outlet was mostly talking to myself in the car like a crazy person. And while I will most likely keep doing that, this way feels more concrete and gives the illusion that I have things under control and figured out once they're in typed form.

Exciting news of the day: I have a job interview on Friday! I think things are in my favor; my dad knows the manager, which gives me a little bit more of an identity; I'm not in school so there are really no scheduling issues; I have customer service experience; blah blah blah. Fingers crossed, and all that sort of stuff!

I am a man of my words, though they be strange and absurd / just trying to keep it real. -The Debt, Julia Nunes