I really need cloning to be perfected. But somehow I need my clones to all be brain-linked. Basically I need to major in about 20 subjects simultaneously. Music, teaching, anthropology, archaeology, film direction, acting, astrophysics, astronomy, religious studies, creative writing...gah. I'm just standing here looking at the world yelling, "LET ME LEARN ALL OF YOU." I feel like a little kid, I just want to be everywhere and do everything. To such an extent that I'm really hoping I will end up being satisfied with my life, not in a permanent state of discontentment. I know I'm only 19 and have a lot of life ahead of me (provided I learn to eat my veggies). But there's just so much to do. I just really don't want to be that person who just keeps doing stuff that doesn't matter and spends their whole life just wishing they were doing something else. Because I know people who are always discontent no matter how many awesome things they get to do, just because in between those awesome things they aren't satisfied. And I love them so much that it's really hard to watch them struggle with that frustration.
One thing I'm excited about that comes with being a teacher are summers off. I know there is still planning and things that happen during the summer, but I also know that my old orchestra teacher got to go places for weeks at a time. That gives me so much hope because that means that if I'm smart about my money, I can go to exciting places on a teacher's salary. I could see Vienna! I could go to fucking Africa, FINALLY! And New Zealand! That teacher was in Germany for like 3 weeks last summer. Hell, she's remodeling her house, too! That can be me, right? Right?
Shit.
Do you dream about music or mathematics or planets too far for the eye? / Do you dream about Jesus or quantum mechanics or angels who sing lullabies?
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